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how it’s going

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I made more meetings this past week.  I went to a new one in the city I work in (an hour away) and it seemed like a pretty nice one.  I’ll go back.  My days are long, but I enjoy them.  I see that this arrangement could be isolating…but I am not going to worry about that right now. It doesn’t matter.   All that matters is not drinking and going to work.

I have begun reading the Big Book the official Big Book Step Study Meeting (I affectionately refer to it as the “school supplies group”) way.  This consists of highlighting directions or suggestions in yellow, warnings or ominous stuff in pink, and promises and positive statements in green.   It’s causing me to read more slowly and that’s a fine thing.  I read a little at a time – I’m just starting Into Action.  (At the beginning I was continuously bothered that Pink wasn’t Positive,  Warnings weren’t Yellow,  Directions Green, but life on life’s terms. Acceptance is the answer to all my problems.)

This is unsanctioned or renegade BBSS reading – sponsor S goes and has a BBSS sponsor, and is passing suggestions along to me.  I wonder if it matters that my activity has no community affiliation.  It feels kind of flat – but I often experience reading the book that way, just because I’ve read it probably more than any other book on earth, except maybe the Rock and Roll Encyclopedia I had when I was in junior high.

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March 28, 2010 at 10:02

going to bed sober

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I’m not keeping score today. Today I will go to bed sober, having petted my cat, talked to a couple of friends on the phone, gone to the gym and work. None of it was super or horrible, but I met it all and did the best I could. I’m a little bored and a little lonely and okay with that too. It’s another Just For Today day.

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August 6, 2009 at 17:06

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upcoming fifth step

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I’m doing my fifth step on Saturday. I’m not feeling too strongly any given way about it. It will be good to get it done – the writing was the “hard part” although I spaced it out enough that it never got me too ruffled or sad or strung out. There’s not too much to say about it, now that I think about it.
I’ve made myself go to meetings a little better the past few days, but it is just so damn easy not to. This is all a lot of making myself do stuff. I’m doing okay at it. I’ll talk about not liking meetings (if only they were 45 minutes!) in a later post. Right now I’m just making myself write this in keeping with this week’s recovery by rote routine…..

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July 21, 2009 at 10:52

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